第二十二個年頭…

二十一歲的生日意味著人生第二十二個年頭…

嘗試找上年生日寫的NOTE﹐卻什麼在找不到。心裡想﹐是不是上年的我就只顧著喝酒了﹖終於﹐在facebook inbox中找到了﹐原來上年有3個wishes: 1)zack lake becomes a better person…可以說是come true了其實…2) find someone that i want to marry…nope 3)去netherlands…nope但我下sem去
日本。

今年生日…彷彿所有野都係新的開始。今日發覺jeff yu有了新女朋友﹐end左我地既電話/msn/skype﹐我亦都defriend左佢﹐delete左佢contact等等。finally發覺其他人都一早有自己的生活: jip-n/a; philip-iris; jx-freshman; sean-d。所以﹐其實呢年真係新的開始﹐no going back﹐一切由零開始。

睇著紅日記﹐先發覺神的復興在六月開始﹐到而家已經半年了。
呢半年﹐o係香港經歷的好似係預備我呢個sem要面對既野咁﹐呢個sem真係好孤獨﹐實不相瞞﹐可能呢個sem流既眼淚多過我咁多個sem流既總和。但…神讓我見到佢既工作, 衪的同在。又o係21歲呢個關口中﹐再一次拉我番到正路。

我要學習咩野先係真正以神為首的生命﹐點樣先可以更加知道神的心意同帶領。

今年的禱告係：求神讓我學習如何活出神為首的生命﹐更像耶穌﹐多點睇bible﹐多點多點禱告﹐多點多點為身邊的人禱告…

Thank you for everything, my dear Lord. You are the Best.. and the biggest.. the highest...
Lead me.

不了了之

或許愈踏入人生另一個階段的時候，身邊的人、事變得愈快…
或許事情發生的那一刻，有很多情緒產生…
但往往沒有時間回應，被太多世務纏繞，所以不了了之。
累積下來，總是有一些時候覺得不能承受了。

人愈大，接觸的人愈多。
唯有時間才能夠告訴你，什麼人值得花多一點時間在他們身上。
有一些人…從前花了很多時間、心機在他們身上，
或許他們所做的跟我期望的不同，或是沒有做我所期望的…
又或者隨著時間、距離，關係已經變得不再一樣。
又或者…明明是可以再努力一點的，當我發覺對方已經沒有付上努力的時候，我質疑這段關係是否還值得我花心血…

我也不想把自己victimize。
但太多無形的失望、傷害，主，求你親自醫治。

Mere productivity is not enough.

This semester has been a tough semester for me honestly. Not only did academic work get harder, extra-curricular activities added so much to my plate. Before a 5-day break begins next Tuesday, let's do a quick recap on what have been accomplished.

Classes:
1. PSYC 444 Clinical Case Studies
- tons of readings every week
- write a 2-page condense paper every week
- 1 group presentation for 2 whole periods of class
- 1 2-page grant proposal
2. PSYC Research
- Ran participants
- Group presentation
- Research grant proposal and grant received
- Data analysis
3. Genetics
- 2 exams
- 2 lab reports
- quizzes
- individual 10-minute presentation
4. Japanese
- Study, study, study...
5. Intro to Anthropology
- Readings
- 1 exam

Outside of classes:
1. Study abroad application
2. Acceptance application follow-up (Kansai Gaidai application)
3. Golden Key Study Abroad Scholarship Application
4. Project Little Dream Application
5. MaD Application
6. TEDxYSE conference

Other responsibilities:
1. RA (tons of work)
2. International Month Planning Commmittee (tons of work)
3. Tutor
4. Group Investigating God
5. (Badminton)

New things that came along the way:
1. TEDxYSE conference
2. MaD competition
3. SSIR program (serious consideration)
4. Psychology Honors Program
5. Summerbridge

Too hard to summarize this semester in a list. :-) God, You are too awesome. Please grant me strength and wisdom to get through the remaining weeks of the semester!

What Kind of World do we live in right now?

I don't remember starting from when this world does not make sense to me anymore. It appears ridiculous to me that we need to come up with some incentives to attract people to come to our events/programs. These incentives include, but are not limited to, free food, raffles, free gifts, etc. Why do we need to spend so much money getting food, gifts, things that people actually do not need or have the ability to get for themselves? Why do we need to have some incentives for people in order to get the messages across? What kind of world are we living in right now?

Why do people take so much for granted and would never appreciate and treasure what they really have?

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