Mixed

I wanna break away from this state so much. I want to feel something, even if it is a slight shock, a small fear, or disheartening pain. 我不想半冷不熱。

Sagittarius hates the lack of freedom. And although how much I don't believe in horoscope, I think this stands valid. Witnessing your care and commitment, it somehow makes me want to turn away and leave. I am no longer a kid anymore, and I am the one who is responsible for my life. No one else can. Maybe put it in an easier way, I don't appreciate so much iintrusion to my life. I don't want to take your love for granted, but I also can't help doing it because I just can't do the same in return. Therefore, stop controling my life and just let me live the way I want to.

No matter how hackneyed it may sound, I still want to say... time really passes quickly. My junior year has gone. And when I return to RIC 3 months later, I will be a senior. A year that is supposed to fill with research, honors preparation, cooking, hanging out, and... computer science. I hope I will survive and I hope I will be there in the Robins Stadium on May 6, 2012 to get my undergraduate certificate. And I promise myself that I would truly embrace this last year of my undergraduate life, and possibly my last year living in the United States. I will treasure the moments cooking, laughing with friends, jogging around the lake, going to the gym, and maybe even reading Spiderbytes.

Feeling not safe at home is the last thing you want to experience. Can't fall asleep.... can't do anything.... /.\ ...... Sigh. Help.

Ai.... :'(