This hidden emotion always overwhelms me.

Thinking that tomorrow is the last day of my week lightens up my mood a little bit; however, it still does not give me enough energy to study for my Japanese quiz tomorrow. This week, I have been constantly reminded of what true kindness is. "The goal of this command is love, which comes from a pure heart and a good conscience and a sincere faith." (1 Timothy 1:5) "Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience." (Colossians 3:12) It is hard to do this kindness sometimes. However, I have found myself trying to change these days, trying to be nicer, trying to love more. I know that I am doing this for Christ, nonetheless, I feel the hollowness inside me.

Today, I heard an interesting comment about me, a comment that I've never heard before actually. One of my best friends here said to her boyfriend, "I'm so impressed by Shirley! She is really changing the University of Richmond and doing what she's passionate about. I admire her so much!" Something similar. I know that I enjoy bringing people together and organizing events. That's also where I can my satisfaction. However, as these things progress, especially after the large planning meeting on Tuesday night, I started to feel a sense of emptiness and loneliness inside me. Somehow, I really wish there's someone who shares the same vision as mine, who can walk with me along the way, who I can seek help from and pray together about everything, who I can count on as my partner. I wish that I can find someone to do International Month and GIG with me. I wish there is someone who I can share every piece of frustration and happiness with.

God, be my friend.