Revelation

Below are honest revelations as I do not know how I should express myself:

1. Last night, my friend and also one of the members of the marketing team for International Month sent me a flyer. I asked her to revise some details and she said, "FINE but is that it? anything else? like you liked it you hate it or i hate you?" And I was shocked when I got these messages. I calmed myself down first and answered one by one. The truth was, she hadn't received the email in which I said "good work!" twice. Honestly, I almost cried because I thought this person was mad at me and had been feeling dissatisfied about my leadership. But in fact, she wasn't mad. Thanks God... I realize I really have little confidence in my leadership. I know that I am a leader naturally, but I do not want to be a bad leader at all. I am still in the process of learning. And I want to be one of the good leaders. I want everyone to be happy and feel good about working with me.

2. I feel lonely at times. I'm beginning to feel that I can't stand this anymore. I need to see my partner, my companion. Oh God...

3. I have 1 big exam, 1 quiz, 1 presentation, and 1 paper due this week. I just hope this semester will be over asap, seriously.

4. I want time to do my own things, like going to the gym and reading.

Seriously... this is one of the hardest times ever. But thanks God, I know I can go through these. I know that He never gives things that I cannot handle to me. I know that through these, I will build a stronger relationship with God, and that's what everything is about. If not, what's the point? Therefore, I do not want to miss the point. I do not want to do perfect in all these things but miss out the main point to build a relationship with God.

:-)